I am in my current state due to my own folly. Unware of the bliss present within me, and wrongly presuming that bliss can be attained from worldly involvement, I am attracted outward. Next, paying attention to and believing the incident worldy thoughts and words to be true, deludes me incessantly and renders me unaware/unconscious of my soul. In this unconscious state, based on my biased and limited or lack of knowledge, I am aligning with what I find favorable and am trying to avoid unfavorable circumstances as well as experiences. This preference is pulling me into a vortex of complex emotions, actions, reactions and resultant unintended consequences. To top to this insult to my eternal soul, I no longer believe that my soul exists, or that a way exists to return to my own self. Rather in addition to the mind, body and speech; I now look up to others presuming they would guide me out. Unfortunately except for passionless Jain masters and Jinvani, everyone has their own agendas. Oh my folly.... So intricately involved in the web of this world, I have lost my way.