Lived unconditionally,
No self-doubts,
No overthinking,
With the best intentions at heart,
Warm and open,
Shared and cared for,
Gave my best in every circumstance.
Reality struck like a lightening bolt,
Forcing me into isolation,
Ruminating, unsure, and clouded by a lot of whys,
Aghast by the true nature of things,
Each decision and turn judged and punished,
Paralyzed and pushed to the brink,
Disillusioned and demotivated beyond repair.
Adrift in the ocean of life,
Confused and disoriented by the push and pull of waves,
Exhausted,
Glimmers of hope - few and far between,
Ocean mirages and conditional help stab into the heart,
Does it matter anymore?
